saying goodbye....

14 November 2006
Well I have 6 days left with Valerio and then its all over….yeah, just like that!? Im not sure how Im really feeling! Im fine and then Im not. Sometimes I just want to sit down and cry. I keep telling myself its going to be okay and easy and I will be fine but I think Im kidding myself!

Its so difficult to know the truth because it’s a ship and life on ships are just not real. Its like living in a bubble.Today I told him that Im inlove with him and he asked me if I think its real. I do, I really do but would I feel the same about him if we weren’t on the ship? If we had to spend "real" time together and live a "real" life?

I think Ive worked it out…why we are so good together. I think he is the male form of me. We think the same, do the same things, want the same things and have the same intentions…..Anyways, the only word I can come up with the explains the situations properly is -BLAH- because that’s how I feel. I guess only time will tell how I really feel and if what I think is love, really is!

*wave*

Well I have 6 days left with Valerio and then its all over….yeah, just like that!? Im not sure how Im really feeling! Im fine and then Im not. Sometimes I just want to sit down and cry. I keep telling myself its going to be okay and easy and I will be fine but I think Im kidding myself!

Its so difficult to know the truth because it’s a ship and life on ships are just not real. Its like living in a bubble.Today I told him that Im inlove with him and he asked me if I think its real. I do, I really do but would I feel the same about him if we weren’t on the ship? If we had to spend "real" time together and live a "real" life?

I think Ive worked it out…why we are so good together. I think he is the male form of me. We think the same, do the same things, want the same things and have the same intentions…..

Anyways, the only word I can come up with the explains the situations properly is -BLAH- because that’s how I feel. I guess only time will tell how I really feel and if what I think is love, really is!

*wave*