The expenditure of energy

The past few months have been rather intense on my emotions. Ive never really been quite this confussed about how I feel about something.

The problem that Ive reached now is that I dont know if I should just give up and save the energy and emotions Im using for something else.....
I mean that sounds like the most simplest thing to do but in actual fact its not.
WHY?
Because if I stop using that energy and all those emotions, I might lose this one thing. The problem with losing it, is that Im not sure I will ever find something close or similar to it....

Hmmm, I think I confussed myself there!!

*wave*