Good-byes.....

Another day goes by where I had to say bye to people.

I love my job but its one that has the disadvantage of sooooo many people coming in and out of my life!!! It really sucks because I hate saying goodbye, but then, who doesnt?

Today Vera, an aerial artist that has been working on my ship for the last 2 months has left. She is moving to the Lircia as we dont need so many aerialist on our ship.
Shes fabulous and Im gonna miss her stax!!! I just really hope that we can meet up again sometime soon!

Not only did she leave, but another person left. Its someone I didnt really get to know that well but really enjoyed his company. I never really got to work him out but I have some of my own ideas to why he is the way he is....

Safe travels to them both!

*wave*
Chantal

Sunnnnnnnny Weather

Its amazing how the weather can help improve a mood. I love sunshine and I love the way it makes me feel!

Today is really hot....rollerblading to internet was exhausting not only because of the heat but also because Im dead tired!! Had a late night, semi-early morning which included training. Been training rather hard and I think I can actually say Im fit. I mean I thought I was strong and all that but since Vera has been on the ship, Ive been doing fitness and strength with her and its made me realise how NOT strong I actually am!

Its the Cheif Engineers birthday today so we gonna have a big party tonight. Looking forward to it actually. Always nice to be around people. Last night all the girls ditched me again to go be with their men....I suppose I would do the same if I had a man but it really sucks because it happens almost everytime we go out!!

Still missing Yoni soooooooo much! Some days more than others but I guess there isnt much I can do.
We spoke on Sunday and after not really wanting to talk to him, a few moments of me telling him how upset I was and then some feelings from his side, we got talking like normal. He called yesterday again and that just made me miss him so much....

Still trying to work it all and well I dont think I will ever understand LOVE......

Time to dash!
*wave*

Love, life and emotions

Its been over a month since my ex left and well his life seems to be going on just fine. Its really difficult because usually I believe things people say but should we? How do we actually know when people are telling the truth?

Since living on the ships I have learnt sooo much about how people work. Ive seen so much unfaithfulness, lies and how people just dont have a clue that they are being lied to and how their boyfriend/girlfriends have other lives.

Here is an example....someone I know has had a girlfriend for almost a year now. During that time I know of 5 girls he has slept with while being with her. Its not an open relationship and she has NO clue. A whole lot of other people know and she has confronted him but he lied his way out of it and she believes him.
Currently she is at home, in Naples and well, he has another shag on the ship, who knows about the girlfriend back home but believes something to the extent that he just doesnt have the heart to break up with her.....all alot of CROCK!

So yeah....I had this idea of how perfect my last relationship was and about how he cared about me and this and that but now it seems it was all just shit....he is home and its been a week since I last heard from him. Why should I always be the one making the contact.....if he really cared, shouldnt he be making some kind of effort.

Im pretty sure he is shagging someone new....whether shes just a time filler or the beginning of a new big relationship, I guess it just hurts that Ive been put to the past so quickly!!

Why do we fall inlove if each time someone has to come out hurting.....

I think Ive been watching to much Sex and the City :)

*wave*
Over and Out!

Missing the ex!

Sunday night sailing to Bari...

Its been just over a month now since my man got sent home and Im finding it really difficult to adjust. I miss so him much and well, me being the unlucky one who is stuck here, (not to sound soppy or anything) but I think Im worse off.
He is back home and well life has pretty much just carried on for him. He moved into his apartment, started doing those things you do at home and even makes weekend plans (living on board, the word weekend doesnt really mean much!)

With so much time on my hands and the series, Sex and the City being on sale, you can imagine what Ive been doing. Im not sure its the best series to be watching while being man sad and lonely but it just gets me thinking so much!!! Its rather scary how right she is about so many things in life....

Is it really worth giving our hearts to someone when there is like a HUGE risk involved? I mean how many times do we have to stick our heart back together before Mr Right comes along? When are we suppose to stop what we are doing and make finding Mr Right the biggest Priorty?
I have so many friends who are either in a serious relationship, engaged or even married (WITH kids).....I know (or so Ive been told), Mr Right will come
along when you least expect it but Im starting to think that line is just nonsense...

With my best friend tucked in next door with her boyfriend, Im off to sleep with good memories of my ex who just doesnt seem to get it....why is it that one person always seems to suffer more when a break up (no matter what the reason) has happened? Why does one person always miss the other move? Why does it have to be so hard???

To that thing called love.....

Layla Tov

Just writing because its been so long since I did......

New season on the ship which is suppose to be fun and exciting but this time Im finding it a bit boring, lonely and cold. The weather is still poof which I think might be contributing to my mood. I NEED SUNSHINE!

My boy got disembarked at the end of last season and its sucks not having him around! I miss the hugs and love sooooooooooooo much......amazing how good a hug can be!

Anyways, outta here!

*wave*